Monday, October 29, 2012

It has been months since my last entry.  We have been so busy!

We had an amazing summer.  We went to Kings Dominion and Overhill Lake.  We played at Romp & Roll, we snuggled and loved, and we all started new schools.

Mommy is on the Knight Train now.  As much as I wanted to work at the high school that you will both go to, it just did not work out.  Maybe I will change my mind when you all get to middle school age, but for right now I love love love my school.

You guys also started at a new school, Bundle of Joy.  You know how much I hate to change up your routines, but with Tommy starting Kindergarten next year it just had to happen.  I am thankful that we did because Tommy has a new best friend!  Parker!  I am so happy to see you playing and happy again my sweet man. 

Elayna, you have a sweet little boyfriend named Kayden.  He says that he wants to touch you :)  If you were any older than 2 that would worry me.

We just celebrated your 2nd birthday sweet bug.  It was a lovely party, we had a bouncy house and a photo booth.  I am so excited to see the pictures.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Father's Day Pictures

I have to start by saying that I am such a lucky lady, you guys are perfect & beautiful & sweet.  But you already know that.  For Father's Day I had planned the tattoo for Daddy - but he didn't like it.  So I got your pictures done.  Purely selfish of me because I LOVE having your pictures done. 

These are just a few of my favorites.  I love this one because Buggy looks so mischievous, like she is weighing out the situation to figure out what she should do next.
 This one is just too cute, Nonnie made this skirt for you bugga boo, I love it!
Look at Those curls and that smile!!!


My handsome prince, I love this picture.  You are a vision, it captures your personality perfectly!

 So smart & kind, I feel like you can see it all right here in your face.
This one was just for fun, what you can't tell is that you are choke holding me.

 There were so many amazing pictures of you bug!!

The lady kept telling you to "smell" the flower, and you wouldn't so I told you to eat it!  So cute!

You asked if this one was your senior picture, I think probably because you beloved Kate is graduating this year.


Stinker!

 The lady that took the pictures was really proud of this one!  I think it looks like it should be in a magazine.
 So, since we did all those girly ones of buggy, we had to do some "manly" ones of you T Bird.  She was pulling out footballs, and baseball gloves.  I wish she had taken a picture of her own face when you said that you wanted a race car instead.  I am pretty sure it is supposed to be a prop for babies, but I think they turned out super cute.

And for the reason we were there, the Daddy Pictures.







Thank you both for being perfect. Two more days of school & then we have the whole summer in front of us.  I am so excited to share all of those adventures with you.

Friday, May 25, 2012

Cabbage Patch Kids



Mommy loves baby dolls, but I don't think there is any quicker way to bring a smile to my face than for me to see a Cabbage Patch Kid.  I love them, I have since I can remember.  We did not have much growing up.  Your grandma did the best she could, we were always happy, well fed, & clothed - but there was not enough for extras, especially not extravagant extras like a Cabbage Patch Kid.

When mommy was a little girl these dolls were EVERY little girls dream & I wanted - truly coveted one - so bad that I remember it to this day.  I finally got one when I was about 10.  After their popularity died down, and after I was considered by most to be too "old" for cabbage patch kids.  I loved them though - SO much.  They stayed on my bed for years and years. I was so happy to give them to you when you were born buggy.  Since then I have found a few more, so that now at 18 months you have mommy's two Cabbage Patch Kids from when I was little plus three more.  I just gave your sweet cousin Savannah one too.

I guess the moral of this story is that I hope that I am able to give you both the most beautiful & amazing life.  And I want to be able to give you some of the things that my mommy would have, but couldn't.

Father's Day

I am beyond excited for Father's Day this year.  I have been planning for months and months.  Your Daddy really wants a tattoo behind his ear (just like mommy b/c I am so cool).  I have been meeting and meeting with Chris, a tattoo artist at your aunt Jessika's shop - River City Tattoo.  I wanted something that would represent both of you.  So for my sweet T Bird, and my little Lana Bug we created this.



I love it, I hope your daddy does too.  I am going to give it to him early so we can work out any kinks and make sure we can get it done for Father's Day.


Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Orange, Red, Go

My sweet little man, your ears have been so clogged up & infected for so long that instead of hearing, "Ready, Set, Go, " you hear "Orange, Red, Go."  Your vocabulary is already exemplary, so I can only imagine how much it will grow after your surgery.

Yesterday you had your adenoids taken out & tubes put in.  Dr. Brager said that there was an excess of mucus and that the surgery should help with that.  I am so excited to see you be well again.

You did not do well with the anesthesia.  By the time they let me back there you were screaming at the nurses, "don't you touch me." Your face was beat red, and your sweet lips were blue from screaming.  I hadn't seen you like that since you were a toddler.  You broke quite a few blood vessels in your face & had to be given an extra sedative so you wouldn't pull out your IV.  It was a scary morning.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Friendship

In life, you will meet many people.  Some will come into your hearts and stay there for a lifetime, others will travel through never to be heard from again.  I can assure you my loves, that everyone you meet will effect you in some way, big or small.

My very very favorite song is For Good, from Wicked.  It talks about friendship, and forgiveness. Most importantly how we all leave footprints on each others hearts - no matter how our story ends.

These beautiful ladies are my dearest friends.  In life, no matter where I go - I know that I will always have the love and support of all of them. 




At the top is Ms. Desiree.  She and I have been friends since high school.  You guys love to play with her beautiful children Peyton, Finn, and Piper.  Tommy, one day I am going to get her to teach you the Flashdance dance.  I know that you will be excellent at it.

Next comes Aunt Butter.  She is your Godmother bug.  She is a wise and kind soul, and I know that she will always give you the best advice.  Her smile can light up a room.  I am so glad that you will always have the benefit of her guidance.

Beside butter is Denise.  She is so funny, and so creative.  I used to love to just be near her to listen to her jokes, and witty sarcasm.

And then the beautiful Turley.  Turley is just majestic, her laughter is infectious.  I miss her hugs and witty humor.

I cannot wait to meet the friends that you will collect throughout life. 

Your Great Grandmother


Oh the stories, your great grandma had the greatest stories.  I wish I had listened more, gleaned more wisdom from her.  Next week she will have been gone for 18 years.  That is a lifetime.

It makes my heart hurt for my momma, your grandmother.  I know that she misses her terribly, and I cannot imagine how hard it was to raise 2 children without the benefit of having her mother to call when she needed advice.

Grandma was always full of life, my best memories are of her at the river.  She would usually be in the kitchen, cooking or cleaning something - and dancing.  The music was always on.  Usually an oldies station- sometimes country, she would be singing along, doing a little soft shooing against the green linoleum floor.

She always kept a bag of doggie treats above the refrigerator, she loved feeding the strays, and the neighborhood dogs too, of course.

She tried to put my hair in "pin curls," I didn't let her.  I was such a brat.  I wish I had, then I might know how to do it now.

She and your great grandfather lived through the depression.  It made them apprecitate things so much more than we do.  Your great grandpa built the cottage on Muddy Gut Road with his two hands, how amazing is that?!  He also picked out their house on Chamberlayne Road without her even seeing it.  I remember her telling me that she didn't like it. 
I remember once at the river house I was trying to help by doing the dishes.  She had made eggs and sausage on a cast iron skillet & it was a mess.  I scrubbed it & scrubbed it until it was clean.  I was in so much trouble!!! I had no idea that that you were not supposed to wash cast iron.  She also used to wash out plastic bags and Reynolds Wrap to re-use them, along with any plastic cups or cutlery.  I still cringe a little before I throw away Reynolds Wrap or one of those big gallon sized bags.

Audrey Meade Forney

She really did have some wonderful stories.  The ones that I remember her telling the most were the stories that she told at the end of the pier at the river.  She would take my hand in the darkness and rub my thumb nail as she told them.  We made lots of wishes and discussed hopes and dreams for the future on the end of that pier.  That is where your great grandpa told me that the moon shines so brightly because it is fluorescent.
The one that I remember hearing the most often was the story of her eating an apple in her home ec class.  Grandma was hungry, so hungry, and her class was making apple pie.  They had to peel the apples, and they were throwing away the peels.  Grandma took one of the discarded peels and put it in her mouth.  She began to chew it and then choked.  Once all of the commotion was over she got in trouble for it, can you imagine getting in trouble for that?  I want you to be sure that you are always grateful for what we have, even if you don't think it is enough.



Forney Family

This is one of my favorite pictures.  It was taken at the River (Rivah to you), your cousin Lisa came in from Oregon and we surprised grandma and grandpa.  These are all of their grandchildren John, Lisa, me - your adorable mommy, Steve, Grandma, Evan, Joseph, your Uncle Billy, and Grandpa.

Grandma was the glue that held the family together.  She always had crab balls in the freezer, and made the most amazing lemonade cake.  You & I got your middle names from her bug - Meade.  I love having that part of her with me all the time, and that I was able to pass that on to you as well.  It seems kind of like keeping the flame of her memory lit forever.  I hope that one day you will consider passing on the name to your children.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Changes

I am so excited, things are changing & fast.

We are finally putting a fence in, this is going to make it so much easier to play and have fun outside.

Papa & Daddy are building your playground, it is going to be amazing.

And we finally have enough saved up to get a minivan. 

Life is good, I am so happy.  You are both so sweet & full of life.  I cannot wait for summer.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

First Kiss

March 11, 2012

Sweet Bug,

You are growing up so fast.  You have such a little personality, you amaze me with how smart (and sassy) you are.  One of your favorite new things to do is pack a purse, or a stroller & pretend like you are leaving.  You usually pack a train or a car, a spoon & sometimes a cup.

On Sunday we were playing dress up & you had your bag all packed, I was sitting in the floor in the kitchen sorting through things and you waved bye, I said bye back, and you started to blow me a kiss & then changed your mind and came running at me.  You gave me the sweetest, open mouth kiss right on my mouth.

It was amazing.  I will never, ever forget my first kiss from you.

Asthma

Asthma, truly I can't even spell it. It has the combination of letters that make my dyslexia go crazy. In the past two days I have looked up asthma symptoms & treatment so many times that I should be able to spell it perfectly now.  I still can't


It is the explanation of why you cough so hard.  I hope that you will outgrow it & that you will never ever remember coughing so hard that you broke the blood vessels in your sweet face and couldn't catch your breath.  I will never forget.  For right now you are on a ton of medicine and we go see an allergist next week to see what you are allergic too.  We are going to do our best to try and remove your triggers.  I am looking forward to you being all better.

I love you sweet prince, all the way to the moon & back.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Am I Qualified to Answer That?

I am a fairly intelligent woman, teachers usually are.  (insert laugh here)   But, I never thought I would be answering the questions that I have in the past two weeks.

"Mommy, what is a soul?"

This is when we were in the car.  In my head I am trying to calculate the exact right thing to say to this HUGE question.

A soul is what Jesus put inside of you that makes you special and beautiful.

I think that one was pretty good.

"Mommy, when we go to Heaven can we come back?"

This was when we were getting ready for bed.

Heaven is like our playroom, beautiful and warm with lots of windows so you can see everyone you love.  When you come back you will be an angel.

You did not like the answer to this one, you wanted to know that you would be able to come back and play with your toys.

"Mommy, why do people do bad things?"

Sometimes even big people have days when they aren't very good listeners and they do things that they should not.

"Mommy, did you know that my whole class is going to heaven."

Yes sweet baby.  Then you told me everyone but Issac because he is absent too much.  Then we had a talk about everyone that loves Jesus gets to go to Heaven.



These are all from the past two weeks.  Your little brain must be going in overdrive.  I am not sure that I am qualified to answer all the questions that you will have in your life. But I hope that I do ok.

Love you!

Mommy

Friday, March 9, 2012

Happy Birthday Uncle Jack



Yesterday was your Uncle Jack's Birthday.  Really he is your Great Uncle, but he is such an amazing presence in your life that it makes much more sense for you guys to just call him Uncle Jack.   He was there for both of your births, to help us move, to put up ceiling fans, and most importantly he is always there to be a constant presence in your life.

He loves both of you so much, I love seeing your eyes light up when he calls or comes by.  Last night he brought Holden over.  You both love him too, I love to see you relate to family so well.  At Thanksgiving Holden helped teach you to "play" the guitar.  It wasn't a real guitar, it was some silly thing that your Grandpa has that was made from a beer can.  But the good news  is that when you are old enough I know that Holden can teach you to play the real guitar. 

Elayna, you are quite smitten with Holden too, he is one of the few males in your life that you will let pick you up.  Similarly, Uncle Jack was the first man (other than Daddy) that you cried for when he left.  We were at International Date Night with Nana & co. at Cracker Barrel.  Uncle Jack got up and left the table and your sweet little lip poked right out.

I am so glad that you will have such a positive role model to grow up knowing, and loving.

Thank you Uncle Jack for helping me to Defy Gravity & pass that along to my babies.

Happy Birthday.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Sweet faces



I am in love with this picture.  Your sweet face is so so so funny!  This is right after we came inside from playing out in the snow and you were getting something to eat and warming up.

Look at how stanking beautiful you are bug, you were warming up too.  Your sweet little fingers have paint on them from a project earlier that day.


It is really hard, almost impossible to get you to both look at the camera at the same time.  In this picture Daddy was trying to help me and you guys were laughing at him.

An impromptu playdate

We had a beautiful afternoon, you are both finally feeling better.  It is such a relief!  The weather is getting warmer, so my hope is that I will be able to keep both of you healthy.  Today after nap it was so pretty outside that I decided we should go for a walk.  This is not something I am normally comfortable doing because of all of the stray dogs.  Well, if I am being honest - it is just the two dogs across the street, who are not stray at all.  But today there were enough other people outside that I knew that if something did happen we would be able to get help quickly.

About a minute into our walk you guys spotted our friends down the street.  They have 4 kids!  Twins, Kate & Matthew are almost 3, Jack is 5, and I feel really bad that I do not remember the oldest boys name.  They were already playing with a lady and her 3 kids that live on South Anna.  Before long we all walked down to Ann's house and you guys were playing and having the best time.

Tommy, you climbed a tree!!!  I have never in 32 years climbed a tree, but you did.  The other kids were much more adept and when they quickly decided that it was time to go play in the back yard again you were still in the tree, before I knew it you were hanging by your arms about 4 feet from the ground. I took off running to help you, but by the time I got there you were already down.  Then you and Matthew rode their Monster Truck Power Wheel all over the yard.  Elayna was not too happy about you making a new friend.  She followed you guys pretty closely and tried her hardest to get in on the action.

Sweet Kate started picking daffodils and giving them to everyone.  You guys both thought that was pretty awesome and we came home with a beautiful bouquet.  Of course, they were all stemless since sweet Katie picked them at their heads, but lovely none the less.

It was hard to convince you guys to leave, but it was dinnertime and time to get home.  Once you guys finished dinner Tommy went outside to help Daddy with the boat.  Tommy drilled some holes all by himself.  Elayna, you stayed inside with me and we did some chores and watched some Blues Clues.

One of the most special moments of the day was when I was tucking you in T-Bird.  You turned to me with your sweetest eyes, and told me that you were going to Heaven.  We talked for awhile about it and you told me that your whole class was going to go to Heaven because you love Jesus in your heart.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss

Here is a secret for you, when I was little I didn't like Dr. Seuss.  I don't know why I didn't, but now that I read it to you guys I love it.  Love love love.  It is so much fun to hear you mimicking the words and wanting to see what comes next.

But there is another, much bigger reason why I love to celebrate Dr. Seuss' birthday.  It marks the anniversary of the glorious day that we found out we were pregnant with my sweet bug, Elayna.

Princess, you have no idea how much you were wanted.  And how very very hard we worked to get you here.  As Tommy approached that magical age of two I knew that I wanted to have another baby - so you could be constant companions and friends.  Both Daddy and I have several years separating our birth and the birth of our siblings.  I wanted to be sure that we did not have that with you and Tommy, I wanted to make sure that you grew up together.

We tried for 7 months.  In retrospect, 7 months does not seem like that long of a time.  But holy cow, when we were going through it it was like forever.  Every month that I got I period I would morn, so worried that my rough pregnancy with Tommy had prevented me from getting pregnant with you.

I had finally decided to meet with a fertility expert.  I called and made an appointment for a Friday, and the Monday before - on Dr. Seuss' Birthday I finally got what I had been dreaming for.  A positive pregnancy test.  Words can never describe how happy I was.  I actually tested twice, by then we had spent so much money on home pregnancy tests that I had started buying them in bulk at the dollar tree. 

Your Daddy was downstairs getting ready for work & Tommy was still asleep.  I had purchased a shirt months before & not told anyone, afraid that we would never get to use it.  I went downstairs, shirt in hand, eyes all glassy and told daddy that I wanted Tommy to wear this:



We both cried, and held each other for a little while.  Then we had to get ready for work, it was soooooo hard not to tell anyone, since we wanted to tell our family first.  We decided to tell everyone on the Jones/Forney side of the family at Savannah's baby shower.  I showed them all the shirt & they were so excited.

We went the next day to Nonnie & Papa's Tommy wore the shirt, but they did not notice at all.  Daddy finally told Papa to read the shirt.  Every one was so excited that you were coming little bug!!
My students were so happy too, they threw me a shower & made me a diaper cake.  It was the sweetest thing.

Elayna, you were like a rockstar inside of me, you got to listen to all of the greats, Chaucer, Beowulf, Shakespeare.  You would move all around, and get so excited.  Sometimes during IEP meetings you would literally be doing flips, it was so hard to stay focused all I could think about was you.  What you would look like, what your name would be, how much fun we would have, the list went on and on.

Before we found out your gender, I knew.  I had a dream while we were still living in Chesterfield.  Before we even found our forever home in Rockville.  In the dream Tommy was running around and playing in a giant field, but I was siting on a picnic blanket with a beautiful little girl with dark hair.  I knew it was you.  A woman that I worked with, named Minnie, also dreamt of you.  Beautiful dark hair & creamy skin.  She left Varina before you were born, I wish I could find her to let her know she was right.

The summer of 2010 I got so sick, so horribly, horribly sick.  I had something called c-diff.  It was awful, suddenly a pregnancy that had gone so smoothly was in serious risk.  The medicine that they prescribed me was questionable for you (it was Flagyl), I resisted taking it until they told me that without treatment I would undoubtedly die.  It took 2 and a half months to rid my body of the disease.  And it was not until you were born that I finally believed that you were ok.  It was a true miracle that you were not affected by the disease, or by the medicine.  We are so lucky!
Meanwhile, school started.  I was so big, and you were so big.  I was working at Varina High School, and they were under construction.  There were many times that I would venture across campus and have Braxton Hicks pains that were so intense that I was positive that you were going to come right then.

I worked RIGHT up until the day before you were born.  I remember walking through the parking lot & a bus driver hollering to me asking me when you were due, her face was priceless when I replied, "tomorrow morning."

You are so beautiful, and sweet.  So snuggly and perfect from the second that I first held you.
These are the PJs that earned you your nickname, Bug.  I was holding you and loving on you, chanting your name - My little Elayna.  When Tommy came up and noticed your Lady Bugs on your feet.  He called you Lana Bug, and it stuck.




And now, look at how big you are little Bug.  I love you so much, I cannot wait to meet the woman that I know you are destined to become.
Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss!

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

A fun link

This is a link to a website I created while I was pregnant with Tommy.  It was before the arrival of Facebook (yes mommy is old - I even had a beeper in high school, not a cell phone) and I used it to keep the family up to date & entertained by my first time pregnancy stories.

http://www.totsites.com/tot/babywood


Supa Star!!!!!!!!!!
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You & Great Grandpa, I love this picture.
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One happy little dude!
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You can almost hear you saying, "get me off of this guy RIGHT NOW!"
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And Blue!  Golly Day, we love some Blues Clues in the Wood House.
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Tubes for the Princess

My sweet Angel Elayna, I think you may have been born with an ear infection - not really, but in your sweet little life you have had so many ear infections that I cannot even count them.  Lucky for us your Grandma works at Virginia Ear Nose and Throat & is always able to get you seen quickly.

You had your first set of tubes at barley 4 months old.  You were so little that they had to do it at the hospital.  It was a scary ordeal, but the tubes helped a ton for about a year.

This time we went back & forth with the surgeon (who was ready to give you tubes about 2 months ago) and your pediatricians who kept wavering.  But yesterday we got it done.

When you wake up in the morning the first thing you want is your morning snuggle and then a sippy of milk.  Yesterday I could not give you either, and it broke my heart.  You keep saying, "Cracker." Then when I didn't give you one you would enunciate, "Cr-Aker," and go point at the pantry.  It seriously tore my heart out, so we compromised & did lots of hand washing (one of your current favorite activities) and watched Blues Clues.  You have learned to ask for Blues Clues by putting your hands beside your ears like Steve does and saying, "Blu Pluus."  Yes my love, you are adorable.

The surgery went well, and you slept for almost the whole day, which in truth was pretty damn scary.  You woke up around 2 and tried to walk to the door, and your little legs crumpled right under you.  I was terrified so I called the Surgeon who said that was a "normal" side effect.  After you had a banana and some cereal you went straight back to sleep.

It is my sincerest hope that this time the tubes do the trick, I hate to see you sick, or in pain.

On the bright side grandma got you lots of new toys, one is a baby alive doll that just talks and talks.  I am pretty sure that you will love her in a few years.  She even poops.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Fretchler

Sweet Tommy, for a few months now you have been telling me that we need to have another baby.  It alternates between a boy and a girl, but the name is always the same - Fretchler.  You came up with it one night this winter at George's house.  You & daddy were sitting around their fire pit hanging out with Heather, Kate, Jordan, and Shirley, while I was home with Elayna.

You happily burst through the door, nose and cheeks all pink from the cold air and excitedly told me all about Fretchler.  I thought for sure that it was a phase that would pass, but here we are months later, and with no prompting you are still talking about Fretchler.

It is pretty sweet, Elayna is quickly becoming a big girl, the babyness of her is fading away into toddler hood.  I think often how much I would like to feel a little life growing inside of me again.  But the truth sweet prince, is that I am a pretty good momma - kind of amazing I like to think.  But I stink at being pregnant.  We both almost died when I was pregnant with you, and then again when I was pregnant with Elayna I was so sick. With C-diff that time, super yucky and potentially lethal for both of us.

I like being your momma way to much to put all that at risk again for another baby, I hope that you will understand that when you are older.  For now I will enjoy all of your stories about what Fretchler is doing in my tummy.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Tommy's Story

Yesterday was your fourth birthday little man.  I really can't believe it, four years old.  I read an article this morning that said that between birth and the time you leave for college I have 960 Saturdays to spend with you, that does not seem like nearly enough, especially since I know that in a few short years your world will change focus, and I will no longer be the center of your universe - your friends will.  It breaks my heart a little bit, but my hope is that I will be able to fill you with so many beautiful memories for you to fall back on when you have babies of your own.

In 2007 your Daddy & I had been married for 2 years, together for 6.  I was so ready to have a baby, but it took a little convincing to get your daddy there too.  I was in the last semester of my Master's of Education program at Old Dominion University, and was Department Chair of Exceptional Education at Varina High School.  It was the end of the school year and I told my friend & co-worker, LaTonja, of our plans and she convinced me that we should steer away from our "plan" to get pregnant at the perfect time so I could have you over Spring Break and then take the rest of the summer off.  That is every teachers dream, just so you know :).

I really think we probably got pregnant that night.  By July 5th I had a positive pregnancy test.  We were so excited.  We decided to tell everyone the amazing news at a birthday party for me (that we threw & then cleverly invited everyone to tell them at the same time).  We got presents for everyone & had them open them at the same time.  Books for Nana, MawMaw, and Nonnie & Papa; And Stuffed animals with bibs that said "I love grandma" and " I love grandpa" for Grandma & Grandpa.  I remember when I gave them to everyone no one seemed to really know what was going on until my momma, your grandma, let out a shriek.  It was pretty amazing.

The cats seemed to know that something was different, that something amazing was about to happen.  They took to grooming me any chance they got, especially Priscilla.  Bailey would lay on my tummy, like he was protecting you.

The day after our 2nd baby shower for you I was put on bed rest.  It was a day or tow before your Daddy's birthday.  The doctors had been worried about swelling in my hands, feet, and face for a few weeks.  In an instant I knew that something was really wrong.  I was giving an exam to my 2nd block class (English 12), when my phone rang.  It was the OB, I had seen them the week before & he must have been looking over my chart.  He told me to go to the clinic and have my blood pressure taken.  It was high, high enough that he told me to go straight home - that I was on best rest.  I remember being devastated, who would teach my students, feed the dogs, do the dishes, go grocery shopping?  Bed rest meant that I could not even drive to your doctor's appointments.

I went in to the office to tell the principal that I had to go home, and that I was not sure when I would be back.  I started to cry and a very wise lady named Ruth told me to enjoy my time with you.  And I did,  I watched the food network endlessly (Paula Dean mostly) and Dog the Bounty Hunter (he reminds me very much of your Grandpa).  I would talk to you, eat ice cream so I could feel you moving around, rub my belly & tell you how much I loved you.

It was during this time that we finally picked your name.  If you are old enough t o be reading this, you know by now that it takes a lot for Daddy & I to agree on important things.  He really wanted to name you after his dad (your Papa)  I agreed, but did not like the name Mark for a first name.  Not nearly romantic enough for the boy that I already knew you were going to be.  We toyed with Anthony for awhile, that is your Papa's middle name, and Gabriel ( I loved that one, but your daddy not so much).  Patrick for Father Paddy, the priest that married us, and probably the only man of the cloth that I have ever known your daddy to be drawn to.  Then one night I was taking to Nana about names, it was important to me that your name mean something.  She started naming off family names, and then said her dad's name.  Thomas August.  In that moment I knew that you would be my Tommy.  And Mark Thomas Wood was created.

We set my induction date for February 19th, this was pretty scary because my first due date was March 26th.  We went into the hospital (St. Francis) it was so pretty, they have these automated nature sounds, so I heard birds chirping when we went in.  They tried to induce labor for three days, but you just weren't ready yet.  By the third day my pulse and Blood Pressure were really high, and my kidneys has started to fail.  Dr. Miller told me that we needed to have a C-Section, from that point it was about 30 minutes until you were born.

They had trouble getting you out, you snuggled deep under my ribcage & they had to really pull to get you out of there.  You were so tiny, the nurses said that they did not think you were 37 weeks.  Your first Apgar was pretty low and everyone was really really worried.  Daddy & I were scared too.

We were in the hospital for a week, and they sent you home with a bili blanket and a nurse came every day to take your blood.  Soon you started to gain weight.  I was so lucky to be able to stay home with you from February until August.  It was an amazing time, moments with you that I will treasure in my heart for always.

And now you are four!  It is hard to remember now how very scary those first few months were, trying endlessly to get you to eat, going to physical therapy for your torticollis, and worrying that I was doing everything right.  I think I did pretty good, because you are amazing.

Friday, February 17, 2012

I was playing around today and made this

I found this site called picnic, I think I will use it more often, so fun!!!


Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Oh my Groceries!

Whenever something crazy happens, or I get frustrated I always say, "oh my gravy!"  I have said it forever, I can't remember where I got it from , although I think it may have been Rachel Ray.  Yesterday Elayna was playing in the dog water bowl (this is unfortunately a common pass time & much better than playing in the cat box), and Tommy saw her and said, "oh my groceries."  I laughed so hard.  I love you both so much.


As I was driving to work this morning I was thinking of how lucky we are.  I love that you guys are going to grow up in Rockville, where the scenery is made up of farms, sprawling landscapes, and wildlife.  We could not have chosen a better place for you to grow and thrive.  I got an estimate to have a fence put up, hopefully we will get new details soon, since someone is getting a swingset for his birthday!  Little do you know that while you were sleeping this Sunday Daddy & PaPaw put it under the house.  It will be so nice to have a swingset, we had one but the wind blew it down- twice.  By the second time it was not able to be repaired.

Your birthday party is getting closer & closer.  I am really excited & hope that all of your friends come, in this day and age not many people RSVP anymore, so fingers are crossed for a good turnout!

Monday, February 13, 2012

What a Weekend!

We had such a great time this weekend. I am so glad that your little lives are filled with so much happiness.


It started on Friday when we checked the mail, Tommy made a Valentines Day Card at school & mailed it home.  I cried like a baby.  I am so proud of you little man, you are 3 years old and already you are so smart.  I love you so much!



Then we went to church school, where your sweet friends gave you some birthday presents.  On Sunday we went to Magnvs' birthday party.  He is seven!  I cannot believe how big he is, it makes me realize that soon, too soon you will both be so big too.  I treasure every moment.

Elayna "teaching" with her screwdriver.  She has to have one because Tommy has one :)

At the bottom of Aunt Jessica's steps. There is so much history in her house, I love that you are a part of it.

Shea!


Aunt Jessica & Little Bug.

Shea and the birthday boy!


Aunt Jessica and Magnvus

Tommy, you were so excited about the pool table.  You loved to watch the balls go down the hole and then figure out where they were going to go.


Monday, February 6, 2012

What does that mean momma?

I always want both of you to "Defy Gravity."  That quote comes from Wicked, and has replaced "PRENCES" on my licence plate.  Although, you both know that I am, and will always be a princess. 

I think that by living to defy gravity you can achieve great things.  If you believe in yourself, and believe that you can do and be all things - then my loves, you can.

Defying Gravity means to defy what is expected of you. Doing what you want, what YOU dream of and ignoring everyone who says you can't. There are people that you will meet who say that things are impossible, but I bet they are not.  With love and grace all things are attainable - just not always in the package that you expect. Always have confidence in yourself, and surround yourself with love.
 
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down:

Together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team
There's ever been
Dreams, the way we planned 'em

There's no fight we cannot win
Just you and I
Defying gravity
With you and I
Defying gravity

They'll never bring us down!
I hope you're happy
Now that you're choosing this

I really hope you get it
And you don't live to regret it
I hope you're happy in the end
I hope you're happy, my friend:

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Everyone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!

Just think of what we can do, together!
 

Paw Paw Magic

There is something about your Paw Paw (or Papa) that is truly magical.  He loves you both so much, gets right on the floor and plays with you.  I love to watch it, I know that you are going to have the most amazing memories of him - it makes me unbelievably happy.

Over the past week Elayna has learned to say Paw Paw, she experiments with it, Paaaww Pawwww, Pa pa, Paaaaaaaa P.  In the morning it is one of the first thing that she says.

Tommy had to fill out paperwork for his new school, Noah's Ark:

Who is your favorite person?  Paw Paw
What do you like to play with? Paw Paw
What is your favorite thing to do?  Play with Paw Paw
What do you want to be when you grow up?  Just like Paw Paw

Magic, just magic.

Noah's Ark

Today marks your first day at Noah's Ark.  Your teachers, Ms. Shawna & Ms. Cheryl seem so sweet. I love that the daycare is so small, I hope & pray that they will love on you all day.

It is also about 2 weeks until Tommy's big Birthday Party!  Four Years Old!!!!!!!!!  I really can't believe it.  It will be fun to have your friends from Minnieland and your new friends from Noah's Ark come.

Tall Tales by Tommy

It was a pretty eventful weekend.  Saturday morning was lovely, full of Cars & Alvin & the Chipmunks, coloring and goldfish.   Right after lunch (and just before nap) Tommy announced that he saw sweet Elayna eat a green thumb tack.

Mommy's heart is then swallowed by her tummy..... 

Oh my gravy!  As I was running around the house preparing for a trip to the hospital I picked up one of Tommy's blankies and found a green thumb tack.  Then the tall tales started, Elayna (now 15months) jumped up and got the thumbtack, Isabel jumped up there, it went in her tummy, then she spit it out and Elayna ate it.  Daddy came home, knocked it down and gave it to bug. 

The bottom line was that at that point I don't think Tommy even knew what was true & what was a story anymore.  So off to Kid Med we went.

Thankfully they are lovely people, just lovely.  Grandma came to sit with me & Nonnie & Aunt Ashley came to get Tommy to keep him away from all of the germs.

Don't worry, Elayna is just fine - and now we have a beautiful picture of her tummy to put in the baby book.

What an adventure.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Hello my Loves

The idea behind this blog is to keep a chronicle of you.  I want you both to know how amazingly special you are.  I am not sure where to start, so I am fairly certian that this blog - as with most of the things I do will be a stream of consious.  An ongoing letter to you that one day you will be able to read & and use to have insight into your childhood.

I love you both so much!

My Tommy, you are so gentle - smart, loving, sensitive.   You amaze me every day with your memory, you can remember accurately, things that happened months ago.  It lets me know that you are well on your way to being an amazingly smart little boy.

Sweet Elayna, you are the apple of everyones eye.  You love to dance and make funny faces.  You scowl at people who you are unsure of, I think it is so funny.  You love to color.  Often you will pick up a crayon and carry it around the house, pretending you are taking notes, writing down very important things.  You talk the whole time.  I know that it won't be long until we all know exactly what you are saying.

We moved into our "forever house" almost 2 years ago.  I was still pregnant with Elayna & Tommy you were two.  I love the house, it will be the perfect place for the two of you to grow up.  You are about to start at a new day care, Noah's Ark.  Mommy is pretty nervous about it, I just want to know that you are both in a safe, loving environment.